sttttttressed outt!

so i went to the field hockey scrimmage today, it was soo hard to just sit there and watch the team play, and i couldnt go in at all.. the whole time i just tried to fight back the tears. we won.. 3-0 goo perry hall field hockey! the team looked awesome by the time i get back they prolly wont even need me or anything. I cant just not play anymore. My knee felt a little bit better earlier when i woke up but now its in a lot of pain.. i try to do my exercises and ice it. I also have been taking my stick out in my yard and trying to do all i can so i dont get to rusty.. but im worried ill never be able to run like i did b4 :( im just soo worried about a lot of things i dunno what to do about my dumb knee... well hockey was horrible for me to try and get through im glad we won and played hard and did an awesome job, but its just hard not to be able to do anything for this long.. when i get back im kicking some ass!!!! lol !!! well neway when i got home from hockey.. since i had nothing to do.. i cleaned out the inside of my jeep and then some little kid who lives in fron of me threw a water ballon at me.. while i was cleaning my jeep.. i was soo pissed off.. lol but ya kno its all good.. i guess it was kinda funny in a way.. but i dunno.. lol yaaa soo then i came inside and didnt have nething to do.. so i made lisa this rele awesome thing and sent it to her in the mail.. lol !!! ahh i wish muh damn senior pics would come in the mail soo i dont have to go get them taken again caz that would just suck.. caz im not good at getting all dressed up 4 nothing.. even thought thats what i do everyday.. bcuz half the time i dont do shit.. bcuz people r fucking rude.. latley all i have been thinking about is senior week.. and how i can just get drunk everyday and not have ne sports to worry about or anything.. and i can just have fun and 4get all the shit thats always on my mind!!! i hate always thinking about the bad things.. .i try to think positive and just when i think something great will happen something eles bad happens.. and i mean i know i just need to get over things.. people get hurt all the time.. and bad things happen to everyone.. but its hard for me to get over all that right now!!!